This is one of “those” days. One of the days where every single little thing that one’s spouse says is irritating. One of those days where the children really can’t do anything without assistance and they need you right in the middle of something careful that you have to pay attention to. One of those days when the dogs won’t stop barking at every passerby walking a dog and I think someone with a dog must be walking back and forth in front of the house.
This is one of those days where I really should be alone by myself so that I don’t say the things that I feel like saying to everyone, like, “Just shut up, John” or “Does NPR really have to be on ALL DAY?” and “Can’t you do anything by yourself, Katie?” or “How hard is it to set your own alarm for school, Jack?” At least I can say whatever I want to the dogs and they’ll still love me: I have already informed Rowdy and Gracie that they are barking way too loudly and too often.
At times, I imagine a quiet place for myself. It’s a small-ish house that is way the heck out in the country: a small clearing around the house to let in sunlight, but trees everywhere out back. Maybe on a hill so that there’s a vista of the nearby farm fields and mountains in the distance. Despite the small size, there is an immense fabric room, with a sewing machine that is permanently set up and plugged in. There is wonderful lighting, both natural and artificial, and a table so large for spreading out multiple rugs that I can work on 5 at once without having to put any of the others away. And NO ONE else is there, for miles and miles and miles.
Multiple authors have commented on the need for a special place away from others. Virginia Woolf wrote the book, “A Room of One’s Own,” and in that she famously said, “A woman must have money and a room of her own to write fiction.” Part of a Stephen King quote: “Write with the door closed…” And Ingmar Bergman wrote about an artist’s need for solitude.
I adore my family, even my eternally barking dogs, and I love being with them… mostly….
But not right now.